What If?

What if I had told someone
from the very start?
What if I had not believed
the shame deep in my heart?

If I had been brave and bold
and turned my rapist in
today I would not fear the cold
and justice I might win

If I’d stayed the straight and narrow
and avoided future harm
I’d not have conceived a baby
Who’ll never grace my arms

And yet if things were different
If I’d taken a different path
Would I have a compassionate bent
in suffering’s aftermath?

What if the past were dissimilar
to what my life has been?
Would I have the nuclear
family I love so dear?

What if I had not gone that day
unknowingly into harm’s way?
Everything I know would change
and life would be so strange

What if? I will never know
I can only live this life and grow
in faith and mercy for others who
will never know What if? too

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That NaPoWriMo.net prompt for today is to write a poem about what might be. I was going to write a poem about what might happen if a publisher offers me a contract on my memoir, but then went a different direction with a poem of what might have been.

About Linda Kruschke

I am a Jesus Freak, and I don't care who knows it. I am a wife, mother, sister, aunt, daughter, and friend. My blood family is only part of the larger family of Christ that I belong to. I love to write, especially about my dear Savior.
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6 Responses to What If?

  1. S says:

    Oh, this stanza:

    “And yet if things were different
    If I’d taken a different path
    Would I have a compassionate bent
    in suffering’s aftermath?”

    I am so sorry about your suffering, and about your baby.

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  2. Debbie says:

    Thanks for writing these poems this month and sharing them with us. I just feel like God is working in them. Like a poetry chapbook companion to your memoir. :). And this poem reminded me of the “all things working for good” verse.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Loved the take on the prompt.

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