The Journey’s End

Do you ever have those days where you just feel like you haven’t made any progress at all in your Christian walk? You know you shouldn’t complain about little things, but you do it anyway? You know you have to let go of anger and bitterness, and you thought you had, but there it is again? You struggle with any one of a hundred different sins that humans struggle with and wonder if you have really changed at all?

I’ve had days like that, and I know some of my Christian friends, both in the real world and the blogosphere, have had those days, too. The feeling is encompassed wonderfully in the Casting Crowns song “East to West.”

Here I am, Lord, and I’m drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You’ve cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I’ve never sinned
But today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
’cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
’cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You’ve washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel, but by the truth Your Word reveals
I’m not holding on to You, but You’re holding on to me
You’re holding on to me

My favorite line in this song is “I can’t live by what I feel, but by the truth Your Word reveals.” It reminds me that when I am struggling, when it seems like I just can’t let go of some behavior or feeling that I know is wrong, I need to turn to His Word. When I feel like maybe I’m not really changed at all, maybe I haven’t truly taken hold of my Savior, I need to remember that I trust in the One who does not lie. And His Word says that if I confess Jesus is Lord and believe God raised Him from the dead, I will be saved. Romans 10:9. His Word says that God loves me so much that if I believe in Jesus I will have eternal life. John 3:16. His Word says that He will send His Holy Spirit to dwell in me to guide and teach me. John 16:13.

Some days everything goes well and I’m on top of the world. Other days I struggle. I sometimes see my Christian friends struggle, too. But on those days when we struggle with our own sinfulness, with not yet being perfect, I think of what Paul wrote to the Philippians:

Every time I think of you, I give thanks to my God. Whenever I pray, I make my requests for all of you with joy, for you have been my partners in spreading the Good News about Christ from the time you first heard it until now. And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. Philippians 1:3-6.

It is that last part that really helps. It reminds me that it’s okay if we are not perfect yet, if God is not yet finished with the good work He has begun in each one of us. Why? Because His Word says that He will be finished on “the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Since that day has not yet arrived, I know He’s not done and hasn’t given up on me.

So, my friend, if you are feeling like you are a failure, like you are just one mistake away from God leaving you this way, remember that He has promised He will finish the good work He has begun in your heart. And God always keeps His promises.

I am a Jesus Freak, and I don't care who knows it. I am a wife, mother, sister, aunt, daughter, and friend. My blood family is only part of the larger family of Christ that I belong to. I love to write, especially about my dear Savior.


9 Responses

  1. Thank you, Linda.

    It can feel like quite a drag at times… I’m thankful for the work of the Holy Spirit and the constant reminders that God is indeed with us.

    Thanks for being a willing vessel. Your honesty in sharing helps the rest of us recognize that we’re all on the same journey and we’re not alone in feeling ‘inadequate’ at times.

    Powerful lyrics. Powerful, true and so reflective of our daily walk. Can’t honestly say each day ends the way I intended it but I can honestly say He’s always there to wash me again and again and again… I marvel at His love for me.

    Yes, we’re not yet perfect but with His guidance and the prayers and support of those around us, we will yet hear “well done, My good and faithful servant …”. The Christian journey is a journey. Ongoing. Progressing. Not static. Until He returns or bids us to His side, we will ‘fall down and get up’ over and over again. Thankful to know He doesn’t hold it against us.

    Thanks again for sharing. Let’s keep praying for each other.


    • Ann, I love this: “Until He returns or bids us to His side, we will ‘fall down and get up’ over and over again. Thankful to know He doesn’t hold it against us.” I agree it is important that we keep praying for and encouraging each other as we grow to be more and more like Him each day. Peace, Linda

  2. Nice blog. I too experience those days and wonder why should I try to better myself if I’m nothing seems to be working. But then I remember that God has greater things in mind for all of us. I just started up a blog on this website and I basically mentioned that I can’t be perfect, but I’m going to do my best to stick the plan that God has in store for me because we are more than conquerers in Christ!

    • Adam, Thanks for stopping by and commenting. Yes, we are more than conquerers in Christ! What a wonderful truth to hang onto. I look forward to checking out your new blog. Peace, Linda

  3. Oh how I love how He orchestrates our lives! And works within us, even when we don’t think He is. That song is so powerful, Linda. I often remember that line too . . .when I start to feeling something that’s not the best, that’s not from Him, when I get a little down. It’s what He says about me and about Himself that is real, not these temporary feelings and emotions I go through. Thank you sooo much for giving us all hope! love, deb

    • Deb, He is pretty awesome, isn’t He? I have a good, wise friend who always said you can’t go by what you feel, but by what you know. God’s truth I know, and I’m going to hang onto that. 🙂 Peace, Linda

  4. And my blog friends made me cry one after the other today! You have blessed me so much and gave me hope in my walk with Jesus. Sometimes I feel so unworthy of His love because I hate the sin others have committed towards me and yet I am sinning too because of that hate. I want to overcome all of this so I’ll just persevere with my faith and welcome the help from my godly friends.
    Thanks Linda so much for this! 🙂

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